Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Attitude..is what we need

Alhamdulillah..
I dah ada dekat posting ED..my last posting..
Housemanship..seronok!
Zaman yg ko akan jumpa kawan2 baru..yg baik,yang unexplainable pelik..
Well..you just have to face it..

I lambat sebulan dari kwn2 lain yg masuk sama
kena extend dekat ortho because of cross match problem..
well..dipendekkan cerita..
i hantar darah n borang yg bbeza dua kali berturut2..
so..extension is mandatory without explaination..

eventhough explaination letter diminta untuk tulis..nobody wanted to read it..
i wrote a letter just  for protocol purpose..
well..that is life..i nangis..tido pon tk lena
down gile tk tau nak ckp macam mana..

dlm ot theatre..rasa nk mengalir air mata bila mo pujuk..
u just dont have the mood to talk
(ouh..OT ortho kuat bergosip..)

around this month,last year,my 3 month extension reduced to 1 month
i was told by Mr Diat that he personally asked Board of Houseman to reduce my extension

and ......Alhamdulillah..
sebulan je kena extend..
kebaikan kena extend,MO u biar u turun ED sorg walaupun u baru 2nd poster(because i agak lama dkt department)

every body knows u in the OT
u are the chief of HO..
u are comfortable with ur work..
one thing definite lesson adalah from that moment:I DONT TRUST PEOPLE
walaupun itu kwn2 masa u..
i recheck,walaupun itu kwn I yg buat..
lagi selesa buat kerja sendiri

tapi..ortho mmg sah2 la aku tk suka..haha
ntah..ot ortho cm gerudi sana sini..
nk kena deal dgn anesthesiologist("they are right until proven otherwise")..ntah la..betul ke tk..
but they tend to have that kind of personality..(bukan la semua..but kebanyakannya..)
alah..aku tk tau lah mcm mana nk citer..ko masuk la keje dulu..

then as u went through semua posting..ko akan jumpa mcm2 cabaran..
ada rasa seronok,down..
ko tk dpt nak tahan..ko hnya menangis..

aku dekat medical 5th poster..
aku chief HO,buat jadual..

satu hari..di dalam wad medical lelaki yg aku sorg je senior..
dan berlambak2 junior..
ABG berlambak2 nk kena amik..branula nk kna psg..(junior ko tk dpt)
procedure berlambak..
MO panggil sana sini...
org lab call ko mintak borang..

dan bila junior2 ko boleh mkn tgh hari sambil bersembang..
ko hnya menangis..
untuk marah dh terlalu penat..
ko tkkn dpt apa2..sbb aku dh bnyak kali rasa lepas aku marah aku menyesal..
sbb benda tkleh setel dgn marah..
mmg tkleh..ko hnya akan memburukkan diri ko..dan keadaan..

apa yg aku buat???
nantilah aku sambung..nk dkt kol 12 mlm dh ni...bye  =)




2 comments:

Auriss Haira' said...

fuh kak qilah. semoga dipermudahkan... @_@

atiqahdahalan said...

hai kak, i've been missing you and to listen to your story LIVE.

hehehe