19th July

I don't have energy now.

Post call after 3 consecutive days of oncall.

Procedures in the morning,clinic day, interrupted afternoon sleep.

I barely can open my eyes 

Just because today is 19th july,it marks my 35 yrs of existence,I want to save this post as a post that is posted on 19th July.😂

To be continued later..

I came to Manjung as specialist 2 years ago on 15th July.I still remember,my parents brought me to famous kedai nasi lemak in Tronoh for breakfast and straight away went to JKN Ipoh.

It was weird ,at 33 years old,your parents still sending you for report duty.....😏

2 years down the line.

I learned how to not jump onto someone's words and decisions.

I learned how to curb my emotions.When I get angry,to the point that I think I cant control my tongue,I will choose to leave.Not to react is sometimes the best reaction.

I learned that being always right  and try to justify your righteousness is sometimes not worth.Time will tell and thing will get into its place when the right time comes.

I learned that I cant stay alone.People say that a person who can stay alone and doing things alone are tough.But who cares,I need people to have a conversation with me,eat and crack a joke.We need people to live.

I learned it is not important to show that you are superior than anyone else.Humility is a value that I treasure from someone who has achieved success.Seriously,sitting in a higher position make us feel that you are always right.It is not....I adore people who is compassionate regardless of position they hold.

One advice that ayah and mak always tell me.Jangan sombong..Selalu cakap,jgn sombong.

Mungkin sbb,I always meet my species kind of people.I rarely meet a weird people..As I get older,I met few people who have issues.Kdg2,aku terfikir,eh sebenarnya kalau ramai people against aku..adakah aku ni yg pelik and org lain yg aku rasa salah tu betul(oh yes,aku mmg selalu aku rasa aku betul,sebab banyak kali aku fikir pun,kalau aku buat decision,pusing ikut mana pun,I always believe my thoughts and decisions are right..hahah)

Today,as of 23rd July 2021,I came home tired.Felt lonely more than usual.Fell asleep and woke up after I received a text from my friend.Straight away I called my friend,drove my car to Lumut and talked to her for one hour.

I should persevere,be more resilient.Pray to Allah that He gives me calm and peaceful mind and soul.

'Aqilah,u've got another year to survive Manjung.💪💪