Perasaan unexplained

taken from carseat

    picture taken before balik.they will be missed.

Pernah tak ada perasaan yg unexplained.

Tadi dah lepas rasa mcm nk mrh..drive kejap nak dkt pkl 2 sampai masuk waktu pjbt.

kdg2 tu,aku serius tak faham dengan perangai org.

takkan la kita nk cakap kan..sebab benda tu mcm common sense.

akhirnya,aku senyap je and walk away sbb kalau kita ckp .kita tahu akhirnya apa akan jadi.

akhirnya i will end up with another fight with my friends.

i just cant stand benda tak betul and cannot say yes when it is totally tak baik or tak betul.

at least,my friends have to have nilai yg sama mcm aku .responsibility and humility.

kdg,aku pun mcm tak sure adakah sebenarnya aku yg pelik.

sbb org tak suka aku.haha..

tp aku tetap fikir and fikir balik..eh,aku tak pelik..benda yg aku buat betul..pk balik pun rasa aku tetap betul.

tp bila ada benda jadi tu..susah untuk kawal emosi.haih..

kena sabar,thn perkataan dan fikir psl banyak benda Tuhan dah bagi dekat kita.

apart from that, skrg,i found playing games that need focus can also distract my mind.

plan nak pergi walk dkt tmn teluk batik..but as usual,ms nak balik kerja la,prem keluar.

borak kejap ..helped them a bit..then balik..

rasa nak duduk sorg2 bila keluar waktu pjbt..sbb taknak end up dgr cerita sedih psl diri sendiri..haha(selalu bila aku duduk dgn bdk2 ni,aku end up dgr org bcerita psl aku kt blkg)

so..drive for one hr..stopped a while near to lumut sambil main game..

entah la.perasaan ni unexplained.mmg,mmg aku tahu,Tuhan ada.sebab tu kena sabar..tp seriously,perasaan ni killing me slowly.

Kilah,u can do this..ko mesti boleh ..kalau ms master boleh..kenapa skrg tak.now u re older,wiser and experienced.

one day,u will read back this entry and smile or even laugh at this entry because u surpass this.

This too, shall pass,'Aqilah..