Superficially calm.

 Sunrise today morning😄😄

profile picture one of HO in my current hosp.

Assalamualaikum.

Hari ni,bangun pagi rasa bersalah..

Profile picture atas ni,belonged to one of my HO here.

She is lurus,once i scolded her because I cant tolerate her.She is married.a soft girl,2nd poster.superficially dia tenang..tapi this picture actually reflects her thoughts..😟.she struggles.

This morning,i texted her to help me with something.She replied me nicely.

Haih.. rasa bersalah.

Yday also,i voiced my ketak puasan hati to one of district mo because they kept a high risk patient for 4 days without consulting in charge paediatrician..budak perempuan ni menjawap..dia salah tapi dia jawap jugak..

tapi,tgh mlm tdi dia text and nak consult satu case,walaupun tak urgent..she shouldn't text actually at 1230am.

i replied her at 3.30am when i woke up.

tp bangun pg takde la rasa nak marah.. reply her texts,then aku rasa..aku salah jugak .

sebab tak sabar..

maybe dorg punya learning curve berbeza.

takleh nak bezakan mo 3-4 thn kerja dgn aku yg dh kerja 12 tahun..

i should be more patient..

bayangkan,org yg kita marah tu,adalah isteri org,ibu kepada anak2 dia..anak kesayangan parents dia..

mesti tak sampai hati kan..

i dont want people that I love scolded by someone sampai rasa hilang jati diri..

i was once there.

make life easier for people.kena ingat tu..

ok,next week I'll make sure I'll buy food for them..minggu ni aku rasa aku mcm bitchy..

semalam aku senyap je..org tnya aku tk jwp..and aku cakap dgn dorg..jgn ckp dgn sy..sy tgh nak marah..hahahah(ko bygkan,dah pkl 2pm.balik ward,femoral line for chemo tak insert lagi..apa pn tk prepare..aku yg prepare sedation,barang. .tp aku tk bgtau la dorg kenapa aku nk mrh..mesti lagi buruk..)

Hari ni,kita makan nasi lemak mcd for bfast..rindu sgt nak makan kari yg sedap,laksa kuala,nasi lemak yg pedas sikit. 

makanan sini manis..jemuu..

okla,nak siap pergi besut ..will be on leave until Sunday!!

doakan smooth perjalanan..

p/s:HO perempuan mmg suka menjawap walaupn salah..mmg nature perempuan kot..btw,masa aku sek menengah,aku pernah menjawap dkt senior f5 sbb dia nak guna tel cepat..utk call boifren dia..satu asrama tau dia gayut tepon dgn bopren.(dia jerit,eh ko kalau nk citer psl mknn,balik rmh lahh)

ala,form 1 ..nangis sbb ikan bilis goreng tak buang isi perut.. 🤣..and asam pedas..lauk yg masa kecik dlu aku tak nah tgk .

akak tu ckp,ko kalau nk citer psl makan..balik rmh lah.

mak aku dgr..mak aku kata jgn menjawab..

aku letak telefon..and pergi..tiba akak tu jerit..hey ko siapa nama..aku tak jwp..just jalan.

dia jerit..kurang ajar betul.

aku patah balik..aku cakap dkt akak tu:akak la kurang ajar..hahahahaa....

jerit la akak tu..satu asrama dengar..

semua kakak dorm jumpa aku mlm tu..nasib kakak dorm aku semua rational.