Day that passed with overthinking.haha

Kejap je hari berlalu kan.

I woke up at 245 am today..cannot sleep.i think i slept at 915pm.last night..tiap hari balik pun letih..More than 10k steps everyday..tak kurus pun😅

ko pernah tak rasa,kalau jadi apa2 yg kita rasa significant dalam hidup kita and keadaan tak seperti yg kita harapkan..

contoh nya...

masa birthday aku hari tu,ada few people i thought they would remember but they don't.

contoh mcm intan and azah.

intan is so busy with her work as oncologist,up until now,she forgot my bday.

azah waktu maghrib on 19th,when she was driving home,she called me sobbing..her father admitted to CiCU after so many months struggle with post cardiac surgery complications.

macam jugak kita kerja dekat satu tempat ,and we remember those place dearly,hoping that other people will remember us dearly.

hehe..tapi..lepas je perkara tu lepas and we meet again, nothing significant.

probably people don't remember you.

benda2 mcm ni selalu buatkan aku rasa kita ni bukan sesiapa dekat dunia..we are just people who happen to pass through in their life and made transient impact.

semua org pun ada their own issues kan dlm kehidupan.. we will be someone's past history..i told sumaiyah regarding my thoughts on my b-day..

kenapa aku buat sesuatu or suka sesuatu di luar jangkaan dan bila ko lepas or get over..ko rasa...what was i thinking before....haha..(i am in that phase now)

she just giggled..(aku pahamla,dia rasa benda tu pelik..haha..org lain pun rasa benda tu pelik)..tp kan...kalau kita tkde tindakan or berfikir luar kebiasaan..takkan banyak benda ajaib jadi kt dunia ni hahaha

i plan to do so many things today.

rasa nak makan heavy bfast today as most likely I'll be eating lunch alone.Teh is going to have postcall off kot..tp tak tau nk mkn apa..rasa nak mkn keutiau goreng,tp susah nak cari .haihh

I am going to hv a walk in the evening,hopefully cuaca ok.

when i am writing this, it's raining outside.. and I better wake up now and iron my clothes as I plan to leave early for work today...

maybe aku masak maggi goreng dgn telur mata je..haha..i seriously dont have food to cook.

Good day to u too!!

by the way,aku ok..tak depressed..at times..aku akan ada fikiran mcm ni but don't know whom to tell to..😬