Last day of 2021

This year has been  a chaos.

I am emotionally disturbed since end of last year.From a WhatsApp group texts,I can sense that people said bad things about me in front of other people.

I am not that naive,it is just that I dont want to make a big hu-ha..malas nak dgr org mrh2,sindir and jerit.And i dont usually asked other people,but always ,those stories came to me easily.

I considered this year is a year of personal growth. It is a year that I know I have no one to depend on except myself.I learned how to love myself and sacrifice for people that I care for.I also discovered that I did pretty ok in terms of working..😝

If people say,we need to learn to forgive and forget,I won't forget.Forgive pun,entahla..kalau org dah buat dekat kita repetitively..mmg tak da adab kot .

Maybe you think that I am ego,trust me I am not.tp,siapa je yg tahu rasa lonely takda kawan and menung sorg2 dkt rmh sbb rasa susah hati..

org tak rasa benda tu..at once,i drove for whole day sbb rasa sedih and serabut.it's all in the past

So,this year resolution will be like before.I want to become a better person.maybe i want to try to let go and resolve my hatred feelings.and i really have to learn to ignore.Ada satu resolution tiap tahun pun sama tapi tak nah berjaya..haha..mesti tau kan apa .

actually nothing new except nak start belajar dah.i am going to focus afterwards and will be more busy.

i will read more and travel more if possible..

I hope that,bila nanti aku dah takda,org akan ingat aku dengan perkara baik-baik dan Tuhan redha dengan aku.

Ok Kilah,chin up..give ur shoulder a pat.U did well this year !!