Thoughts and feelings that u cant tell

actually...ada satu benda ni, lingering around my mind for these few months.

i already knew the answer almost last 2w,tp ... aku ada masalah nak accept..ouh btw,i did nothing i just observe and ....overthink sorg2..hahaha.. psycho je ..

tapi aku percaya dgn diri aku..it is just that belum masanya and Allah nak uji..

kdg kan,aku selalu tertanya dkt diri aku ...kenapa aku mcm selalu kalau ada benda jadi je..impak tu bsr gila and i was like receiving a big slap ..

adakah itu mcm Tuhan marah ke or cara penerimaan aku yg negative .

selalu try pujuk hati or cari jawapan thru radio,baca buku .nampak mcm actually Tuhan nak bagi aku pengajaran..a lot of lesson yg no need to mention .terlalu banyak.

tapi, lama2 try utk positifkan diri tanpa ada reassurance that 'ure doing ok' tu meletihkan.

maybe i am overthinking.maybe i am tired .tapi...tapi...how to avoid overthinking 🥲..

'Aqilah,let go and let God.

u will be ok.i know u will.